An aside
Back on Weight Watchers, after six months off--a few months in which, just like that, I gained back 7 lbs. I know--I know--it's a tedious topic; others have worse problems. But nothing has defined my life more persistently and insidiously than the struggle with weight. It's part of almost every story, though I usually leave that part out. It's so knotted up in who and why I am as I am that I can't separate it out--only keep it private, because I'm ashamed of it. It's got all the force and agency of an identity: whenever I try to change it there comes a point when I feel it resist. The harder I push, the more it resists, and so I become even more severe--because I can be willful, too--until I'm seeing stars in the shower and I know it's time to stop.
It's a pathetic thing to write about--humiliating--except that it utterly confounds me that two children wouldn't be counterbalance enough in this struggle. One of these days I really must ferret it out.
Lost that 7 lbs again. Here we go!
posted by I n g e r @ Friday, July 21, 2006
4 Comments:
There's nothing to be ashamed of! At all! We all have our struggles; sometimes all we lack is a key piece of information to make the next battle go our way. For me it was learning that for each year you're past 30 you lose a half pound of muscle; the muscle burns calories 24/7, so having lost at least 10 pounds of it (and not having had much to begin with) it's no wonder that even eating the same amount my weight was headed into Orson Welles country! (Not to mention all the things I had been eating to compound it!)
At least you are doing something about it, unlike me for so many year!
I'm proud of you!!!
alan
yes, yes the weight thing...it's been a lifelong thing for me as well...literally life long...and alan is right - there is no shame here...
i've done weight watchers and everything else...you name it...but what is finally working for me is the basic simple rule of living - eat the way the intelligent woman that you are knows you should be eating, and move your ass...i don't even do the moving part for my body as much as i do it for my mind - the dopamine and seratonin and synapses and all that...i do weights for my bones...all these visists to my mom in the nursing home has given me a great deal of insight as to what lies ahead if i don't take care of these old bones...i feel better mentally, and somehow that connects to how i look physically...
all the best, sweetie...love you =)
peace...
Yep, I get it. I have been off for 6 months and have gained way toooo much weight. Today is my first day back and I can hardly wait to lose some of this weight.
Good luck...
Mary
"pathetic," "humiliating"?
how about "human"?
of all your gifts....self-deprecation doesn't seem to fit.
"be kind to your Self, as life is short."
{{{{inger}}}}
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